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[bestmiaou]

i have been thinking a lot lately about how i make decisions about my romantic life. this is complicated by the fact that i have a hard time feeling my emotions as they happen, especially when subtle distinctions are important, like the difference between the beginnings of a long term sustainable love and something that can be fun for a while but won't last very long. i am tired of trying to do relationships the "normal" way, or even the normal for polyamory way. just imagining doing it makes me physically tired.